Miss World 2003

Wow, i think i've not seen Miss Ireland in the final 5 before let alone win the Miss World title. *smile* But what can i say, admittedly she is cute, sweet looking. (I was rooting for Miss Canada though. :P) Beauty paegants are always fun when i was a kid. I would imagine myself being one of the contestants in my mind and have a lil girl greeting me on stage to the song of "You are my star". Ok ok so that was Miss Universe.

I guess old age is catching up with me cos nowadays i look at beauty paegants and i go why are the girls so "lembek". This year's Miss World was a big warm fuzzie feeling of an event. Apart from giving out a scholarship to Miss Albania, they had Jackie Chan talking about how Miss World 2003 should epitomise Love and World Peace (Yes, tell us something new.). They also gave out Miss Talent, Miss Sports and Miss Beach Babe. And what is this with the Fast Track winners?? (This isn't Amazing Race, Phil. You don't give out fast forwards in a beauty paegant.)

Anyways, give me the Chinese Troupe acts anytime. They were the ones who really stole the show, especially the WuHan Act Troupe which did an amazing and graceful feat of flying around the stage (with no safety net whatsoever) just by hanging onto to silk ribbons. :) Did anyone pay attention to the costumes on those two lead dancers?? Amazing!

So, yeah another winner crowned, another lucky girl in the world. But remember this favourite quote from The Body Shop - "There are 3 billion women who don't look like supermodels and only 8 who do." ACTIVATE SELF ESTEEM

Now i'm going to go have a nice bowl of Ben n Jerry's Cherry Garcia with Baileys. *la di da di da*

Christmas Wish List

It's 1st Dec 2003 and this year i am going to make a wish list. :P Lets see how many of my friends will get the hint. :P *heehee*

Clothing

1. Pink wide, scoopneck top with ribbons (red, black and white) prints on it. (Topshop, Size 14)

2. Black wide bottom skirt with a pink cat printed on the bottom left and the black kenken material peeking out from the bottom of the skirt. (Topshop, Size 14)

Note : Vouchers are good too. :P

... :: Update :: ...

Went to Topshop again today and just had to get the top cos instead of having 3 size 14s, they only had ONE left. So yeah. Got it. :) And ther are no more size 14s for the skirt (damnit) ... Sooooo vouchers are still good to go. :P Heehee

3. FCUK black roundneck tee with the words "Me. Me. Me." printed on it. (Size XL)



Accessories

1. Any Swarovski crystal earrings and necklaces.

2. Almost anything from Perlini's Silver.

VCDs / DVDs

1. Birdcage

2. My Best Friend's Wedding

3. Miss Congeniality

4. Ever After

5. Princess Bride

CDs

1. Josh Groban's Latest Album Closer

2. Micheal Buble (First Album)

3. Micheal Buble's Totally Buble

4. Clay Aiken's Measure of a Man

5. Sophie Ellis Bextor's New Album

Books

1. The Princess Bride by William Goldman (25th Anniversary Edition)


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Right, this list is not substantial and it's garaunteed to grow. :P Please keep a lookout for updates. :P Heehee.

How dare they!

Can you imagine this happening in poly where a group goes up to the lecturer, tells him/her that 3 out of 4 of the group's members cannot make it for Saturday's lecture. Therefore, they would like to have their presentation on Monday instead.

Lets just say when i heard about this, i only had one thing to say : "WTF!?" You know this will NEVER happen when we were back in poly. We might have all thought about it but i don't think anyone would have been that dumb to approach the lecturer with that request. *shakes my head*What have these kids been learning????

Of course, no one agreed to that proposition and the group did not even dare to reassert their request when the lecturer asked : "Is there any other group with this problem?". Wuss. Had the guts to ask but no guts to reassert themselves.

I would have definitely had marked the group down cos for this presentation we are to mark the other groups and the other groups to mark my group. There is no way that group is going to get two extra days to finish their presentation materials and still be marked on the same grounds as the rest of us presenting on Saturday.

Again, what have these kids been learning in poly before????? Kids! *tsk tsk*

Idiosyncrasies

There are two things that happen in a classroom setting i hate with a passion :

1. Brats who are annoyingly rude to the lecturers.

2. Student making phone calls in their seats, in the lecture theatre while the lecture is going on.

Case 1 :
The lecturer is not familiar with the technical aspect of the computer/ laptop settings in the lecture theatre. So maybe in his nervousness (this is his first time teaching in Singapore ever) he fumbled and forgot to change the powerpoint slide in to slide presentation mode. Therefore, making the text unreadable if you were sitting at the back of the theatre. Most of us continued to just copy and take down what is on the screen when this brat yelled out "I can't read the words!" and all of us turned towards the direction of the shrilled voice.

Lecturer : "Excuse me?"

Brat : "I can't see the words!" [this time she sounded annoyed]

Well, if you can't read the words, raise your hand up and politely tell the lecturer to put the slide on presentation mode. Didn't your mom teach you to be respectful to your lecturers no matter what? For your info, if you're the one who is guilty of this tonite, here's what has been said about you; you are rude, with no manners and this reflects badly on your parents. As we say in Mandarin : "Mei You Jia Jiao".

Case 2 :
Regardless of whether or not the lecture is boring or you can't understand the lecturer like 99% of us, it does not give you the right to pick up your phone and dial the number to talk to ANYONE IN the lecture theatre. What you should do is pick up the phone, excuse yourself from the lecture theatre and take your butt out to make the call. I don't care if you had an impt. message to pass on or if it was an emergency (i highly doubt so) you DO NOT make a phone call in the middle of a lecture! It's common courtesy.

I seriously don't know why these people have no sense of common courtesy at all.

At the same time i would like to mention that there is an inconsiderate driver out there, driving a Nissan Sunny EX Saloon with the liscence plate no. of SFC6250T. My dad was patiently waiting in line along Bukit Timah Road to fill up his tank at Esso/Mobil when this guy conveniently drove out of the t-junction and cut right in front of us. Err... HELLO???! What the heck did he think he was doing??? He probably thinks no one would say anything but too bad he had to do it to me. Sorry, Mister but that was just so inconsiderate!

Right... back to normal programming.

Just breathe.......

What can i say, slowed down to a complete stop when it comes to updating my blog.


"I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
You say I've been driving you crazy
and its keeping you away
So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
'Cause I dont wanna waste another moment
in saying things we never meant to say"

A general update, last day on the job was on Friday. Colleagues gave me so many going away presents and it was just sad to leave them. I don't have the world's best job but i can safely say i had the best team of colleagues i have had in a long long time. The girls in my dept got me a basket of sunflowers with a teddy bear on it and a 50 dollars from Dorothy Perkins. The guys and gals from the Operations and Merchandising Dept. gave me a 70 dollars CK Tang voucher, a classic Winnie the Pooh bear and a winkie_eyed plush doggie. *smile* Boss even gave me a maroonish crumpler-like bag. I wander what it is with my ex-Bosses and bags cos i have had been given 3 bags so far from all three of my ex-Bosses.



"And I Take it just a little bit
I, hold my breath and count to ten
I, I've been waiting for a chance to let you in"

Met up with Mala last nite and had a good time catching up at Starbucks (which i think can be officially known as our favourite haunt!) with a pseudo alcholic toffee nut rhumba frappie. That thing was damn good and just oh so sinful. *grin* *smile* Just so happened while we were walking along Orchard we wandered into the Buskers' Festival and was met with a whole throng of people. Since it was already the school holidays, parents and kids were out in full force. Doesn't matter to me, only means i get the excuse to go trigger happy on my Nikon Coolpix! =) Got to a point where Mala just bursted out saying "Ee, i'll buy you a kid and you can take photos of the kid all you want. Just please stop going goo goo gaa gaa now!" I managed to take some good photos, esp of this 2 yr old lil boy who just burst into a crowd that was gathering around this golden retriever. He walks in, looks at the dog and then in a wangfeihong-like stance pointed at the dog. *grin* Very cute, he kept pointing and pointing and looking at the door, obviously very curious and very much wanting to go near the dog but was too afraid. *heehee* He was just so adorable!

"If I just breathe
Let it fill the space in between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe"

One of those them days at home again. Only fuels my desire to want to get out. Then again that is stale news, who doesn't know i want out of this place eh? Just as long i am breathing and healthy i will get out of here soon. Get out first and then decide how to pay the debt of 13k later. As the new Michelle Branch's single goes "Everything is alright
If I just breathe."

What i haven't been saying but wanting to ...

Been a while since i've blogged and it's about time i wrote something. Had this whole story about how one of the projects i am handling is almost complete this evening. Production and installation has been done and i must say i would like to pat myself on the back but i dare not. This project has been like a jinx for me, everything that could have gone wrong has gone wrong. Not to mention i haven't done a good job at stuff .. it's like everything i do i have to doubt my abilities to get it done right for once. Doesn't feel good to get a project done and still having to feel that you should mentally prepare yourself for something to go wrong.

At times i feel like giving up and say "Maybe this job is not the right on for me.". Or "Maybe i should not give up and try harder." or "Maybe i am not good enough for this job." With me starting nite classes and the onslaught of projects, assignments and exams coming my way, i really still have doubts about getting thru this. It's really a toss of trying hard to really want to do a good job (and i don't mean a superb job, but a job with no mistakes or anything i overlooked and stuff), feeling demoralised and thinking if this isn't really the right job for me. I've been in this company for about 15 months i should have a good grasps of what i am supposed to do. I look at my two other colleagues and sometimes i really feel they could easily have done this without a hitch and i on the other hand seems to struggle thru it. Of course, anyone would say "But they've done this longer than you are and have had more exprience.". Yeah, true but still it HAS been 15months, i should be doing a better job than i am now.

This was supposed to be a blog to say, "I like my class and i am even looking forward to the assignment that will be given out to us tomorrow." That i am so thankful that i have my gfs and kenneth, darcy, my colleagues and my family's support. I know if i need someone to talk to they will lend me a listening ear. Darcy has mentally prepared himself for the loads of proof reading he has to do, i am sure some of my polymates and gfs will do the same as well. My dad has offered to pick me up from classes at nites which i am very, very grateful for. Wanted to say a big "THANK YOU" for all your support and giving me the strength to believe in myself to trudge on.

Honestly, i just don't know how much longer it will be before i hit that crossroad where i have to choose between work and school. I have no doubt in my mind that i will choose school, but does that make me a failure? Maybe the reason why i work late is becos i can't do my job on time and efficiently, i may seem like i am a workoholic but maybe it's just cos i can't do things right that is why i stay and work late.

On a "down-er" note ..

As the start date of classes draws near, i find myself picturing the worse scenarios ever.

"What if i can make it thru the entire 18 months?"

"What if i have to drop out?"

"What if my boss fires me for not working enough?"

"What if i make it thru but my grades are shit?"

"What happens if the others in the group with me don't understand my difficulties juggling working full time and having to attend classes and project meetings?"

Can't afford to screw up anymore, not getting any younger anymore and alot of what i have dreamt and hope for lies on whether i get thru this next 18months alive and still sane.

I constantly find myself having to struggle at work, i keep finding myself asking "Why aren't i thinking like my other two colleagues?" or "Damnit, that was simple why didn't i think of that before?" or "Why didn't i see that coming?" ... workoholic i might be but am certainly not a good worker...

Will see how things goes .... one baby step at a time. Just have to remember "Baby steps, baby steps, gonna get there in baby steps."

Was so nostalgic ....

Here's my story on how my orientation went.

2 Hours Before i had to leave .....
"Shit! 5pm already??!" Gasped and then furiously started punching really hard and fast on the keyboard, punching numbers and stuff away on the invoices. Working like a maniac and was pretty stressed out cos it seems like when i get stressed out i start to laugh at things and giggle. (WHAT'S NEW?? :P) So there i was trying not to look like and sound like a maniac going loonie trying my darnest to finish what i can.

20 Mins Before i had to leave .....
"Sorrie, got to run." Orientation starts - 6.30pm. Me queueing inline for taxi - 6.10pm. Me getting into cab - 6.25pm. Me getting to SIM - 6.45pm. Me forking out - $10.70. Darn ride cost me $10 bucks!!! Argh!

25 Mins Late ....
Walked into thee school's atrium and i got a message from Yani and said "So you're here for the orientation." Shoot how did she .... *dialled number*

Yani : Hello.

Me : Where are you? I don't see you where are you??

Yani : Somewhere in the Atrium ...

Me : Right.... now where is the Atrium ... am halfway up a flight of stairs.

Walked up the stairs and i looked up and around and she yelled and waved from the 2nd floor. I yelled and waved back but had to run cos i was running really late got to the lecture theatre and walked in. As i was apologising profusely for being late while collecting my set of notes and stuff.

It was then i started looking around for familiar faces and ..... ta da da da da!!! Familiar faces!!!!!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeee.... can't believe i am seing Jia Hui, Esther, Koon Chuan, Jeffrey and Norbert in the same batch as i am. :P Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Some of the peeps from the batch after us were there as well.

So i should do okies ... i hope. :P

Right how is that for a boring blog. :P

Am i entitled to be upset??

I am not too sure if being a friend means that i cannot get upset at her/him or that i always have to stand on their side regardless of the situation.

She came back for her summer break not too long ago and all she could talk about was the other guy who she went to school with. Not her boyfriend who i think is an absolute gem and catch, but this guy she knows from school. She was two timing her bf for this guy and i really don't like what she is doing. It upsets me and at times i feel like shaking her and say "Wake up,girl!". I mean she is flying off on a three weeks holiday to London-Holland-Spain and missing first week of school. Plus, she wants to break up with her boyfriend when she is on the trip over the phone. Honestly, she should set her priorities right and i am one who frowns upon breaking up with someone and taking the easy way out to break up with them on the phone, the email or worse sms. It just is not right or fair regardless of why the breakup was initiated.

Luckily for her, she didn't ask me to tell the guy about the breakup or i would have just lashed out at her. I haven't said it out right that i am not happie with what she is doing but i have been rather harsh when she ask for my opinions.

Fricking unfair

The one thing i hate most is to be unfairly blamed when it wasn't my fricking fault in the first place. I will admit to the parts where i did wrong or screw up. But i fricking hate it when i get accused of something i DID NOT feel was wrong on my part.

No one does a powerpoint slide presentation without going thru the whole slide show once. Alright there was a presentation today so i had all the materials ready, i practiced going thru the slide presentation made sure i knew how to repeat the video clips just in case they wanted to replay the clips again and still move on to the other slides smoothly. But when it the time came for my boss to do the presentation she said she wanted to do the clicking of the slides on her own so i said ok fine. And what happens? She didn't know how to click on the link to run the video clips. She screwed up on the files and i get blamed.

Oh and get this those clips used today were used in another presentation before and they didn't work for her and she didn't tell me. I had made sure on the morning for that big presentation i had gone into the board room tested it out on the laptop not once but twice just to make sure it works. I even had the GM's secretary and the merchandising manager's secretary there and i even played the slide show for them. I had a print out of all the slides and went thru them one by one just to make sure it didn't have missing slides. Well she said there were and i am thinking there is no way in hell that could have happened and the one thing i hated most is to be accused of something i didn't do wrong.

Admittedly i said sorry that i overlooked on the sound system this afternoon and i knew i had screwed up on that one and i did apologise to my boss for it. But i sure as hell didn't like the fact that she screwed up cos she didn't know how to work the slide presentations and i mean come on, even i would have screwed up if i hadn't gone thru the slides once thru let alone her.

Again, i HATE IT when i get blamed for something that wasn't my fricking fault.