Ohhhhhh my body... *groans*

Achie sorie calves. Achie sorie thighs. Achie sori tummy. Achie sori obliques. Achie sorie shoulders. Schie sorie arms.

Am so sore i can't straighten out my left leg cos of my thigh. Bleh. ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

Reason : My HR Manager invited me to join her for an aerobics session yesterday afternoon during lunch. I figured, why not i need the workout.

And a work out i got. Man, in that 45mins including warm up i have never worked my body so hard in a long while now. But it was all good, i don't know about you guys and girls but i love the feeling you get after a really good sweaty workout. Ironically i don't exercise as often as i should. Though i do realise that my own exercise routine can be thrown out of the window cos i am aching all over now which means i need a trainer to show me what exercises are good and the right technique. :)

So next Friday i am going to join my HR Manager for their hip hop dance session and if i like it i am going to sign on. :) The gym is just across the road from where my office is so very convenient for me and we can both motivate each other to go for the sessions. :) I'm looking forward to the pilates classes they are offering as well. :)

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Something to do if you are bored at home, work or school. :P
01. Who are you? :

02. Are we friends? :

03. When and how did we meet? :

04. Do you (or did you ever) have a crush on me? :

05. Would you kiss me? :

06. Describe me in one word :

07. What was your first impression? :

08. Do you still think that way about me now? :

09. What reminds you of me? :

10. If you could give me anything what would it be? :

11. How well do you know me? :

12. When's the last time you saw me? :

13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? :

14. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? :

Thoughts in my mind

I've been feeling a mix of so many emotions the past few weeks.

Today a long time friend of mine told me of his future plans. I am really happy for him. We've both been sharing one common goal for our lives and he is finally getting the chance to meet that goal. Furthermore, he's found someone that he really likes. So this probably signals a step closer to maybe complete happiness for him. And my friend, you know who you are, i'm really happy for you. =)

To be honest, i am really really envious. The "6-monthed" mark, as Darcy put it, has really hit me hard. A few people have been asking is i had bought my tickets yet or if i had made my travel arrangements yet. So far i have been telling them it's too early for that. So if it is too early for travel arrangements than it's way too early for job hunting. I mean who is going to wait for me to finish my contract on Feb 17 or for that fact Jan 17 when i finish my classes.

Just yesterday, i finally came out and told Darcy i am scared. Alot of things have gotten me really worried. It's not that i have not been thinking about it. But more of the fact that i have had a buffer, and the buffer was that i had time on my side. That was then. Now i don't have that buffer or at least that buffer has slipped from beneath me.

In 6 months i will be flying off, i will be leaving my friends and family behind to pursue the dream i have been holding onto for the last 6 years.

What i am afraid of is failure, i am risking alot of peace and harmony in the family to pursue this dream. I really want to make it .. it's resting all on me now. I have to make this work.

So, my friend, your goal and mine are the same. Thank you for telling me the good news you did tonite. It has served to strengthen ALL my resolves to make this work.

The Weather is a reflection of my Mood

Wow, it's been close to two weeks since i've written a blog. That must be some sort of personal record for me ...

Things have just been hectic at work and school. For the last 4 days i have been coming into work early and only leaving the office when i have to go home. Other than that i have been cooped up in the office. When i had to meet my friend to exchange research for my essay the first thing she said was that i looked pale and that it looked like i would get sick big time soon. On top of work, i had to deal with my ADSL connection getting all screwie and that's not good cos my essay is due next Tuesday! Plus i've been so stressed up i can't get to sleep till way past midnight. So the past 2 weeks have been really bad for me.

Today was bad too ... today was the day my body finally told me i am worn out. Today my body just refused to co-operate with me. Today i actually teared up in the office cos i had just so many things to do. It's 7pm and i want to go home. My boss has already gone home... i should be going but i have to finish this up.

I so want a break ...

*sigh*

Most of all ... i miss Darcy.