"Heck Care" Attitude

Something has been bugging me for a long long while and lately it's been so bad that i find myself being unusually impatient, grouchie and snappy. And it's pretty dangerous to get me to a stage where i get nonchalant regardless the issue/ situation/ person. Cos once i get to that "heck care" stage, i will be at a point where i am going to be numb to what is bothering me and i won't give a f**k about it anymore. Sometimes that can be pretty disturbing. There's nothing more dangerous then loosing faith and hope.

HECK CARE

An expression either usedto describe someone as nonchalant or cavalier, or to exhort someone to ignore something.

1. "This sort of serious thing, how can you be so heck care?"

2. "Ah Beng bothering you again? Aiyah, heck care him, lah!"